Experiments in living alone

Oh kay. I really like reading people's blogs. I like people and I like knowing about them - but i haven't become a real big fan of me actually blogging. My favorite blogs are the personal ones that actually let you into their lives, thoughts, and feelings - but those are hard to write! Put your personal feelings out into cyberspace for anyone to read? man, i don't know...i just don't know.
Sometimes i think of brilliant things to write about and then i forget. Sometimes i want to write something and as soon as it's down i question it's interesting-ness or value to the reader. just erase it my mind says. either way, i don't totally get the whole blogging culture - it seems good for brilliant people to blog - because they have intelligent things to say. Like C.S. Lewis, i would read his blog. But yeah - sometimes it's like taking off your clothes for everyone to see. that's weird. But i know i like it on other people's blogs so i guess it's not as weird as it seems. Here's a bit of what's going through my brain right now.

I've been living on my own for a week now and overall i don't like it. There are benefits, that's true - for example:
1) I leave it dirty, no one cares.
2) i leave it clean, no one messes it up!
3) i can talk on the phone as loud and late as i want and keep no one up!
4) i can express myself freely and not get weird looks - dancing, crying, talking, yelling in frustration.
BUT, things that i find difficult about living alone are as follows:
1) i annoy myself because i just talk and talk to myself and i can become really strange after a while - books help with the sanity but it's not enough.
2) no incentive to go to bed or get up...it all just seems like a lot of discipline.
3) eating alone...i agree with alison lau on this one. i usually dine with a good book
4) too much space.
5) it's lonely. phone calls are just not the same as face to face
6) it's draining. My personality profile says i'm drained by too much alone time - sooo true! It's hard to clean when it's just me...with people around (even if not in the same room) it's seems like fun.
Anyway, this seems long enough. Looking forward to school starting and students getting here. Today a group of us went to the beach and erected a minor monument to doing something with free time. It was a bunch of progressively bigger and bigger sticks (last one about 30 feet) that we "planted" in the beach. Maybe a "post-modern" sandcastle, if you will? picture to follow. :P
Hannah, Meredith...come quickly. For now, God and i have had some good long conversations.
blah. there. that's my thought for the week
ps. just so you know, life is generally good, and hannah comes tomorrow! yay!